Saturday, December 15, 2007

May my tears run just as far, that my love might never know that one day I cried for him... (makasaysayan talaga 'to)

Pumasok sa isip ko ang quotable quote na yan na galing sa By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept dahil nakaka-ogag ang pinapakinggan kong kanta.

Parang So Sick ni Ne-yo ang sitwasyon ko.
So sick sa love song, but why can't I turn off the radio?
Actually, iTunes ang player at yung kanta, kahit maraming nakaraan ang
bumabalik dahil sa kanta na ito, paulit-ulit ko paring pinapatugtog...
kahit lumalalim ang iwa ng bawat minuto, bawat minutong binabalik ang lahat.


"
sa aking pagiisa,
ang yakap mo ay hanap hanap pa
haplos ng iyong kamay ay pilit ko paring gingagaya
habang hawak ko ang larawan mo at nagiisa

kung magkikita tayong muli,
hindi ko na ikukubli
na nais madama muli ang iyong pagibig,
kahit sandali
ibigin mo ako ngayon at bukas ay iwanan mo ako
ng bagong alaala sa aking pag iisa

"

Actually, katangahan yan eh.
ibigin mo ako ngayon at bukas ay iwanan mo ako ng bagong alaala sa aking pag iisa
Kung bagong alaala, edi, patuloy kang masasaktan kasi lagi ka nalang umaasa.
Magre-reminisce, mag-i-imagine, mga ilusyon, o hallucination.
Punyeta, pano ko hindi malalaman, eh gawain ko yan.

Sinabayan pa ko ni Aljon ng tanong na nakakadagdag sa emosyon ko.
Actually, oks lang kasi hindi ko rin mapagtanto at masyado akong emosyonal
ngayon. Pati si Leo, binigyan ko ng comment na nakakaiyak.
(pakibasa nalang sa friendster profile niya if ever i-confirm niya)

Na-wei-weirduhan ako sa sarili ko,
kahit yung kantang It's Hard to Say ng The Used, Pretty Girl at Memory ng Sugar Cult,
marinig ko lang, mamaya-maya, humihikbi na ko.
Parang baboy na may sipon lang.

Si Fatima, siya, she's the laughter in my silence.
Alalahanin ko lang yung sinabi niya sa conference sa YM kagabi, solb na ko.
Nagpapagulung-gulong na ko sa hagdan sa sobrang tawa.
Sabi niya kasi, "Gusto kong kumate!"
:))
Actually, Gets ko naman. Gusto niyang kumanta. Pero... :))
Hindi na natin mababago ang statement na yun. Nakatatak at selyado na yun sa kasaysayan
ng mundo, gusto niyang kumate.
:))

Ayun...

Back-to-the-abnormality-na-normal-na-sakin-mode na naman ako.

Ewan. Napaka-emosyonal ko ngayon.
Punyeta. Pero, oks lang.
Siguro, release of incision din ito.






"
Pretty girl is suffering, while he confesses everything
Pretty soon she'll figure out what his intentions were about
That's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head

It's the way
That he makes you feel
It's the way
That he kisses you
It's the way
That he makes you fall in love


She's beautiful as usual with bruises on her ego and
Her killer instinct tells her to beware of evil men
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
And that's what you get for falling again
You can never get 'em out of your head
"
Her killer instinct? Wow! hindi rin siya manhid?



"
This may never start.
We could fall apart.
And I'd be your memory.
Lost your sense of fear.
Feelings insincere.
Can I be your memory?
So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
Just like I imagine.
I could never feel this way.
So get back, back, back to the disaster.
My heart's beating faster.
Holding on to feel the same.
"
Kung pwede nga lang.
"Can I be your memory?"



"
The singer finished singing and she's walking out
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
It's hard to say that I was wrong
It's hard to say I miss you
Since you've been gone, it's not the same
My worries weigh the world, how I used to be
And everything, I'm cold, seems a plague in me
And it's hard to say how I feel today
For years gone by and I cried
"
The singer sheds a tear, her fear of falling out.
So true.
Haiz.
Bakit ba ganito ang mga nangyayari?
'Nyeta.
KTHXBYE.

► PS.

Ako ay isang INFP - The Dreamer